From Li

Dear Saki,
         How are you? It's Christmas and it's very cold. I heard the weather in WCA is weird. Uncle told me, since he was there during his high school years. I have only one year before I officially enter the military with Ray. It's kind of making me nervous that I will already be a "leader" from the start. I wonder how Ray feels... I never really ask him question like this because I'm not comfortable around him.

         I received a letter from Prince Tama of Venus just a week ago. He told me about your well-being in there. Why did he send this to me and not to uncle? So you know Prince Tama of Venus? When did you meet him? You never told me. We are sending each other letters now, talking about our lives as minor princes. He...likes to talk about himself, doesn't he? But he's polite, so I won't take that against him yet. I plan to meet with him over the winter break. See him with me, okay? I'm kind of scared to see him alone.

         Remember the girl I was telling you about? The girl I fell in love with? I am seeing her around more often and I still love her. There is something very attractive about her. But I still don't know much about her background. The only person from her family she told me about was her mother... but I've never met the mother, before. I hope I can present her to you soon, so that I can present her to uncle and my father.

       your friend,

Li.

jelly bitch

Yep. I'm a jealous bitch.
I don't enjoy sharing my brother with anyone unless she is Saki-approved.
I don't like not eating my favourite food while someone is just right there eating it.
I don't like Li boasting how he's in Saturn while I'm not.
I also don't like sharing you know who (not Voldemort, people. Get a life)
And I also don't like it that my father buys Ray's wants in a snap of the finger while I have to work hard for mine. And he also gets the better quality things! >:-(

The effect?

My fear? Hmm... that's a toughy. I've definitely been through some really difficult things, but thinking back on them now...I never really truly dreaded anything. I love all animals or insects in general. Losing people I love is depressing, but life moves on (not that I'm a heartless bitch; Sam's death did come as a shock). I know myself well enough so I wouldn't have a problem with myself or with how I deal with other people...

What is there to be scared of?

Well, there is something. I have been worried about it for a while now. It is simply not being loved. I mean, all the teasing has an effect, too, right? Quite depressing, I know. I'm not very confident in that area.

Damn, I sound like Lei now.

At the bar, there they were

The first person I met is Tama and Tomo. I met them at this bar and they were arguing over something. When they were getting too loud, I decided to butt in but then I realized that one of them was Tama Winogradski, one of the royal princes of Venus (I am such a royal geek). I was quite excited about it. :-) but then I realized that the other person looked exactly like him. And then they panicked a bit about being found out, and then Tomo had enough of it and went away. I never saw him again for a REALLY long time.

So, basically, I got stuck with Tama for four or five months. I didn't think he's ever seen earthlings before, so I was forced to take care of him, because in the corners of my heart there was pity. Not that I minded much, since I have always wanted to meet another royalty (They never allowed me to go to royal meetings before :-(..). But men, was Tama a handful. Oh, the days were chaotic like fuck. It was fun, looking back, but not really something I'd like to relive. It was a hard time.

Which reminds me of this conversation I had with Tama.
We were in a seminary yesterday, just the two of us along with strangers. I took the chance to talk to him again. It's been a while, after all.

Saki : "Tama, you're a narcissist, aren't you?"
He was seriously listening to the talk, so it took a while to squeeze some responses from him (I can never take talks seriously).
Tama : "I've been told a few times, so maybe I am."
Saki : "So you like being the best..." (wasn't really a question, so I was surprised he answered)
Tama : "Of course. Doesn't everybody?" (Good point.)
Saki : "Didn't they name Prince Ralph as handsomest prince, before?"
Tama : *just starring*
Saki : "Aren't you, you know... Jealous? Out-raged? Aren't you going to get him assassinated, drive him to live with twelve dwarves, make him eat a poisoned apple so that you can be the fairest of them all?"
Tama : *chuckles a bit* "that's absurd. I would never kill Ralph."
Saki : "But you can."
Tama : "But I won't."
Saki : "But his status is higher compared to your lowly status."
Tama : *he just blushes*
Saki : "....So you do want him out of the way?" *big devious grin*
Tama : "No. How many times do I have to tell you that? No! No! No! No!"
Saki : "Okay...but why not?"
Tama : *he blushes some more* "He's... Well... I am..."
Saki : "Go on. Don't be shy."
Tama : *glares at me for mocking him* "We're similar, Ralph and I" (he suddenly talks professionally)
Saki : *wtf stare* "AHAHAHAHAHAHAH! YOU'RE NOT SIMILAR! AHAHAHAHA! RALPH IS WAAY BETTER!"
(the speaker asks me what was so funny and I apologize and behave.)
Tama : *glances at me with a shamed expression*
Saki : *suppressing laughter* what's the real reason.
Tama : *he sighs* "He's a good guy."

and then I didn't push anymore because he seemed tired already. Ahh, gone are the days when I used to build us a tent in the middle of some forest, give him milk and lull him to sleep. My little boy is all grown up! *tear*

my first love

So I read Vanilla's blog about her first love and I decided to write mine as well.
Wait, who was it, exactly?
I'm not sure if it was Li are Lei... I've known Li for a long time, and he might've been the first guy I actually looked at as a man... but, you know. He's like a brother to me. It's just... he was comfortable with me and used to change in front of me (just shirts, though). And who in their right mind would not look at him as a man after that? He's got a nice body, too, since we have war-based school.

On the other hand, I looked at Lei in a sincerely pure way, which is why I think he's my first love. Of course, we met during high school, and I immediately befriended him because I thought (NOTE THE PAST TENSE FRIAS) that he was handsome. Because, yeah, I'm a slut. I roll that way. I knew that I was irritating him. It was painfully painted all over his face. He was a very very very silent and mysterious guy back then so I was enchanted. He warmed up to me, later on, so I got to know that he's actually energetic deep inside. And really clueless about life. Very kiddy. And he sees girls as "cooties". I think I was the first girl he told this to because we used to be really close.
I didn't give up on my love yet, when I learned of those totally turny-offy facts about him. I actually thought it was adorable.
And then he joined the poetry club and got a bit serious with literature.
then he started unleashing his true self more when he got closer to Ceika-dude, Eji and Lee, forming the "HB" band.
And then he went out with Paris.
And then he became all quiet again.
And then... I wanted something to drink... so I went to get a drink in the caf, and I saw something really beautiful. And I forgot all about Lei.

Hey, that actually sounds sweet. :-D

Naughty date

I have to go out with Speller for this week.

We...don't really acquaint much... so this was pretty new. Mostly, our conversation included blood. She said Saturnian blood is her favourite kind of blood. I didn't get too close, but she had other plans.
 We were talking about her love life. And by that, I really mean her sex life. She said she's lost count of all the people she's had sex with. I said I'm a virgin. She said she's de-virginazed people countless of times, including female. I said I'm a virgin. She said she pitied me and my lusting over Diamond and told me that she was the one who de-virginized Errol. I told (shouted, really) that she was a big fat liar. She just smiled at me and said she wasn't fat. I guessed that meant she was lying about Errol... it was a lie...right? She was about to say something dirty, I assume, but I told her to stop with all the sex-related topics, I mean, I haven't even made out with anyone yet. Even my lips are virgin! She ridiculed me about my virgin lips, laughing and things and telling me how pathetic I am. I just sat there, pouted and kept quiet. Chronos forbid what I could've done to her had I spoken.
And then she got up and kissed me. On the lips. Passionately. I panicked for a moment, because I thought she was eating me. What a relief that she was only kissing me. But WHOA. She was kissing me without permission there, buddy. After that, I my eyes were teary (because I was still convinced she was eating me), and she said "I stole your kissing virginity"... I was confused. But she said I was lucky number 9, so I didn't have to be so worried. And by that, she really means lucky number 109.
When I was done collecting my wits, I scolded her about kissing girls, kissing me, kissing people without permission. She said it most people find it sexy. I told her she was fat. She said that I didn't have to be so mad, this was how she dated.

But heh. It sure was an interesting day.
At least she didn't eat me.

Dancing and Dreams

We've been dancing.
My partner is Conner and he's very light in his feet.
I'm not really trained in the art of dancing, but I grew up with gymnastics in Saturn's education for female.
I can't say I'm a gymnast, really. I'm not.

Conner is a gentle dandelion, so it's nice to dance with him.

I'm spelling Connor's name wrong, aren't I?

Also, I had the most horrendous dream in the history of dreams.
I dreamt that Ray and Elie were going to get married... The worst part? I'm getting married to Erily the very next day. Can you say Holy Cow?!

New seat plan

We have a new seat plan. And I sit beside Alvin now... :-| I didn't think I'd miss sitting beside Meygan.
Alvin is beside Tomo so he won't stop yapping about his parents being killed by Venusian. Ugh. It's so tiring to the ears already. And what's more? He's behind Vanilla. I can practically see him drool in his head. UGggghhh.
And I'm also in the last row, so the only person I sit next to is Alvin. :-|
The person in front of me and diagonal from me is Nicole and Vanilla. Hot and cold. Weew.

Class was pretty much weird. I don't converse much with Alvin so... I was silent, mostly. But with Vanilla around to insult me, it gets a little chaotic. Poor Jan (sitting beside Vanilla).

Busy, busy, busy GOOSE!

I went back to Saturn but it was pretty boring. Everyone was busy and shit so I didn't have anyone to bother. :-\ Dad and mom had their individual errands to run, and Ray was also doing his princely duties. My only duties for the moment is to study, and since it's out term break I had absolutely nothing to do.

So I just bugged Li. He told me he was in love with someone. .....I never thought I'd see the day. I didn't think he was interested in girls, at all. I kept urging him to tell me who it was but he said he can't. I bugged him constantly throughout the week and all he said was that he can't tell me now because it's not time yet. The little weirdo. What did he mean by that, I wonder?

Sibling rivalry? YES because we're a normal family. We usually make big commotions about silly little things. I know. So unoriginal. :-\

Boring, really.

me and Meygan are like two peas in a pod. Like, you can't have one without the other. I mean, I'm seated beside her, we're roomies. It's like I don't even have time to think on my own!

Not that I hate it, though. I enjoy and appreciate her company. I still talk to Rosie, because Gaji is beside me. I try to talk to Gaji, but Errol is sitting in front of him and it can be pretty noisy with those two.

Hanging out with Meygan apparently means hanging out with Zonvelf sometimes. He's not so bad, that Zonvelf. He's a humorous birdy. I'm jealous of his hair. I also talk to Jan a lot. We both like animals :)

But he's a weirdo.

I also talk to Vanilla, but she's always around Kai or with Connor. Connor is a nice kid. Well, he seems like a kid. I see some frustrations inside him, though. Like there's some beast, deep within, ready to come out at anytime. I wonder what that means?
I've also been talking to Tama and Tomo separately. I think Tomo is avoiding Tama? Well, Tomo is always around Paris, so I try not to talk to him much. Me and Paris are in not so good terms, but Tomo doesn't seem to know (or notice) this.

Paris is just a bitch. Tama probably agrees.

Who is Prince Vic?

So... King Vic. Most commonly known as "Prince Vic". He's a real mystery, but then I decided to do a little research.

He is famous for his fondness over travelling through time. If you're lucky, you might see him. I heard some of the WC students met him. I never had that chance... He also went out with the queen of the Sun before, if my sources are right. Talk about gross. He's like a very ancient king to Saturn now, you know. He's like my father's ancestor or something. Well, he's does have good looks so I don't blame Araw.

Oh, and he was also known as "The Prince with the strange crown" in his era. He had a blue circular crown which has some sort of silky cloth in the back. It's pretty huge. I do believe it's still in Saturn's royal museum of artifacts.
He was sick. The disease, up to now, is still a mystery. Anyway, the disease makes him faint whenever a girl nearby gets hurt. It sounds like a curse, actually. But that "illness" didn't stop him from physical activities. He was always caught climbing on different places...

Apparently, King Vic likes girls who knows how to sing and dance. Has short and brown hair. Cute and knows how to act naughty. Younger. Knows how to ice skate.
He dislikes girls who don't like ducks and cats. And girls who are boastful.

Hmm. I guess we can say that he's a bit on the horny side, no?

He has a younger brother, Prince Tarami. Well, he pretty much looked up to King Vic... but little is known about him. He also "Don't like things" and "Doesn't dislike". Yes, I'm confused too.

New and old faces

I went swimming with my classmates the other day. I think it was some sort of way to meet the new students before the actual classes start. Speaking of which, classes are starting soon. Yikes!
But wow, to become a university student... I've come very far.... And sooner than an eye's blink, Ray would become King when he weds.

This is not what I intended to talk about. Sorry.
So I got to see the new students. Interesting set of people, them. I wanted to get to know them a bit to break that thick wall of awkwardness, but sadly, the others were hogging them.
I did get to talk to that Jan person. He's a really happy and polite kid. PLUS, he likes to talk about animals. We got along because of just that. He said that he was a shepherd before a student. I like him, that guy. I think we'll get along well.


We have this swimming competition thing going on, so I had to teach Errol how to swim. He's really stubborn. I doubt he'd win. He wouldn't even just lose, he'd probably drown as well. It was nice to see Tama and Tomo!! I didn't think I'd see old faces. :D

Camp

So I was talking about how I missed hanging out with Li, right? So I was planning to do something with him. But then he invited me to a camp! I was so excited! We had a lot of camping out activities at our school, and I missed them so much.

It's a camp organized by the environmentalist people. So basically, we were all dragged there to help pick up trash. Luckily, we were mostly teenagers, so it was very energetic. :)

I didn't know anyone there, so I just clung to Li the whole time. He apparently knew a few people so he had some sort of hang out buddies during the camp. I met a few girls who I shared the same tent with. Oh, it was fun. We tended to the farm animals, specially the cows and goats. We also became friendly with a few antelopes. They're so cute. And, of course, we cleaned up here and there. Mostly on some dusty ruins. Hobo's liked to sleep there, we were told. How harsh, to call them hobo. The food was free and delicious! :P

I also got to talk to Li about our childhood. I enjoyed laughing about the silly moments with him... But it reminded him too much of his brother, so we didn't get to talk about it so much. I'm glad he's still the same. Well, he's a bit snobby and distant, but other than that, nothing's changed. He said he's changed a lot, but yeah right...
He thought I changed a lot, though. He said I used to be dumb, and shy, and easy to influence. Now I'm a tough chic.

Him calling me a 'chic' made me happy.

I'M A GIRL THROUGH HIS EYES! YAY!

Him? A man? Not very. Of course, his body is very manly (Our school is tough like that). And his mannerism is like most guys...but..I'm too familiar with him to think that he's a guy. He's so comfy to be with, you know? Most guys make me feel uncomfortable when their around. Li doesn't give that impression...

All's well... *_*

Dammit.
Just when I was enjoying the pleasure of torturing Elie, or seeing Ray torture her... She suddenly goes back to Mars. She said she had a meeting with the Hephaestean prince, Arsen. Chya right. She probably made it up, that skank! She just couldn't take it anymore. I bet she wants an annulment!

He. He. He~ This is all going well... All according to me plan. He. He. He. He...

April Fools! >:9

April Fools was lots of fun!
It cheered me up a whole lot!

...mainly because Elie was here and she was my target all day long. >:)) kekekekekekekekekeke....
She was also Ray's target, so it was a bit of a challenge scaring her at the same time Ray does.
It makes me happy to think that Ray wants to torment her, though.

But Ray has always been like that...
When we first met, I was seven years old, we got along fine. I mean, I liked him. He was an okay brother. But he kept pulling my hair (it was long bakc then) and always telling me things that would make me cry (I was weak back then, too). He wasn't very nice... I wonder why I still like him so much??

His not very nice right now, anyway.

The bummer side of April fools? My mother.
Father keeps on targeting her, and she's being such a sour puss about it.
She had revenge on father... And I can't say he didn't deserve it. I mean, he's been too happy all day long. He needed a slapping on the cheek.
So, basically, my mother won the event.

When will I ever win the event? :(

Cheer up charm

I was feeling really irritated at the universe. I don't know why, but the universe just likes tormenting me. I bet it finally gave in to Spellman. Tsk.
It was my room! It was in complete chaos. I woke up and saw it and that just ruined it for me. I felt like beating my personal maid. Ugh. So I really wanted to talk to someone decent. Not my father cause he's obviously not decent. Not my mother, too. We just don't talk... She's busy. So I ran to Ray. And I wanted to pour my heart out on him, to make myself feel better... But you know what happened? He was the one who poured out all his anger on me. No, he didn't beat me up. He just shouted and ranted about that one cushion. JUST A FUCKING CUSHION! My room is much bigger than a cushion, thank you very much.

I walked out of him when I realized he wasn't talking to me anymore (It was more to himself). The first person I thought about was Li. I've been planning on visiting him anyway so I did.
It was already afternoon when I saw him. He said he liked my new hair.
He was busying himself up with this vehicle. I talked to him for a bit and it made me feel a little better.
He's different from when we were children...

I started my way home when Li had to take his vehicle thing somewhere. But then Errol rung me and invited me to go to a carnival.
When was the last time I went to a carnival...?
I said sure! It was exactly what I needed : Errol and Carnival.

It felt like we were on drugs. Everything was colourful and fun in a dizzy way. We took a picture, too.

That's my new hair! When I think about it, this is the only picture of me and Errol having cheap fun. Drinking and eating random stuff... going on crazy rides... the creepy clowns, the freaky shows... It felt nice. It cheered me up veyr much. We both needed it. He really looked like crap in the beginning, and I can't say I looked better.
It was really fun for me, but I sensed that he needed something else. I'm glad to make him happy for even just that time, though. I wish I could cheer him up better...

To be blamed

I'm going to get my hair done this Saturday!
My father decided to grant my wish since I've been in such a bad mood with Elie's room.

They wasted raw materials on it!! King Ar heard about this room thing (IT WASN'T ME! *hint hint*) and told dad that he shouldn't bother with it because it was okay for Elie not to have her own room. It would be for the best. Yes, the best. My father canceled the room thing, fully convinced of the absurdity of it. I wish they realised that sooner... NOW the materials are wasted!! It's all stinking Elie's fault! ): |

That brat...

I'm not happy with what's going on.

First. Father ordered for Elie's room to be built in the castle so that she didn't have to sleep in the guest room all the time.

Second. Ray's being awfully OCD with this room. He's been pressuring the carpenters... It's so annoying.

Why don't you just let her sleep in your bloody room, huh?! At least we wouldn't have to build that brat her room... ): |

On Li and the vast grass field

I'm so depressed right now, and I think it's because of the climate. I know it's not fair to blame it all on the climate, but it's a Saturnian thing. It's been windy lately... I never liked windy days.
When I was maybe 6 or 7 years old, my father and I lived in this small cottage in the middle of nowhere. It wasn't beautiful there, not until spring. It was usually a vast grass field, empty or sometimes with cows. The cows were wild, but I have always been curious about them so we were sort of friends and they were sort of not wild.

At the other end of the grass field, that was where my father's brother, and my aunt lived with their two sons... My cousins, Li and Sam. Sam liked to keep to himself. I don't think he liked Saturn all too much. Both me and Li liked to play "war" with each other all the time... We are both very loyal to Saturn.

I hated autumn most of all. It was so windy... And Li didn't hate it as much as I do... He had less hair, he would never understand. But at least he tried to cheer me up. I really miss spending time with him.

Journey?? o_O?

... So I've noticed that a lot of people are having their own stupid journeys. What's that about? First Lei does it, then everyone else? Why am I not doing this?

(And I just lost THE GAME.)

Well I'll come up with a good journey of sorts! JUST YOU WAIT!!!

In the mean time, good luck with all of your journeys, peeps.

The place where my heart belongs...

YEY!!!

I'm back to Saturn!!

And before any violent reactions, NO! I was not in Earth. I was in Mars, remember? I spent Christmas and New Year there... And I've been there uptil now.

I really missed the Saturnian air. *sniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiifffffffff* smells so kinky~
Anywho... I've recently been very sensitive about my surroundings in Mars. In other words I was going mad. Who wouldn't go mad?! When you wake up, you greet a gloomy red sky the seems to be frowning down on you. And at night, there are only four satelites. FOUR. What a disaster!

And everyone's so cold... and disciplined. But I do think they're a generous bunch of people. And I was the one flattered when I saw the way they looked at Ray... They looked at him with respect and admiration. They lookes at Elie normally, but Ray was really something.

And I only got to see little of King Ar. Pity... I wanted to go berserk in front of him, just in spite. I wonder how he would've reacted? OH GOSH! Maybe he'll cancel Ray and Elie's engagement!!! DAMN... I should've gone berserk after all...

But then again, I don't have the guts to display such actions.
Aside from the reputation our family (My father's not part of the family) and the Saturnians have to keep, and Ray's murderous looks when I act shamelessly, I actually am scared to go berserk in front of King Ar...

You must be thinking he's this Ban Ru, almighty kind of guy... He's not. He actually looks fragile and discontent. And he has this beautiful soft voice (But I only remember him asking about my health). He looks so uneasy whenever I see him, and he's always wiping invisible sweat from his forehead. (It's an allegory, idiots)... And I also have this gut-feeling thing not to disappoint him. Like he's going to lose it if I go berserk in front of him. And when I say lose it, I mean his life.


Plus, he always has this square gadget in his hand. And he always shows this to Elie (and us, sorta) when he's going to leave. I asked Elie about it, but it seems that she has never noticed it. I also asked Ray, but he said (rather irritably too) that no one tells him about anything around Mars.

Maybe that's why he's so against this whole Saturn-Mars collab thing. To begin with, the two planet are so different. Mars is all about technology, while Saturn is an agricultural planet. You see?
How my father and King Ar became friends, I will never know...

But then again, I should ask my father how... And maybe I'll tell you some other time!
Right now I have to go to my room and enjoy the freedom and warmth that home gives off. :)

Boom the boom tak tak

Wow. It's 2010. Only two years til the Earth supposedly ends.

Oh well. It's not Saturn so I don't mind.
And besides...Earth still exists in the 2626th centrury. There's no way it'll just self-destruct like that. Riiiiight??

right.

So it's the year of the Metal Tiger. It has a nice ring to it, doesn't it? Metal Tiger. That SO beats rat any day. Why does Lei get stinking metal tiger while all I get is a lame year of the rat/mouse?? That's just wrong. And by the time it returns again, I'm like, what? 37 or something? It SUCKs.

I don't want to start to year with unpleasant ramblings, though.
I am so far away from the sun but I can hear their noise. It's dazzling to look at though--the fireworks, I mean. Such big things, going boom in space. Lovely.